“One In This World”

I’ve been searching for
A heart that needs a heart like mine
I’ve been reaching for
A hand that understands
I’ve been waiting for
Someone that I can love
That loves me
Loves me for the one that I am

You’re the one
You’re the one in this world for me
You’re the one

how would i know if you’re “the one” God created for me? i know i can never be oh-so-certain. i am hoping though. it’s very probable for us to disclose the feelings we have towards each other. oh how i dream of that day to come, and yet, despite the fact that i yearn for it… how come i have this doubt? this brusque and distasteful skepticism deep within me?

i want to remove it from this system of mine. i want to, but i cant! i long to be with you… i really want you to be the one. i’m glad i found somebody like you.. though i have this uncertainty, i have faith in both of us. that we can survive this separation and that, in His time, we can finally be in each other’s arms…

in that song, i love that line when it said, “they say you’re the one in this world for me.. somebody to hold me when i’m lonely.. (and so on..)” why? because it’s true. my friends declare it, but i can’t help denying it. call me the denial queen, but i just don’t want to admit it. in my heart, i promised to reserve myself for that somebody who would hold me when i’m lonely, to that someone i’d give my whole world to. right now, that person is my Lord. but of course, i can’t help but have you in mind as well.

i really want to tell you how much i love everything about you. the way you smirk when you’re plotting something evil against me, that dimple on your cheek when you smile as i say hello, the way your eyes twinkle when we talk, the way you make me laugh when i’m depressed, the comfort you give when you know something’s wrong, the absolute honesty you give me, the trust you freely gave, the sweet notions you think i don’t appreciate but you don’t know how much they mean to me, the simple things that mean so much…i just love those.

at night, i’d smile to myself. sometimes i think i’m going nuts, but i know that i just have this reassurance that i will be with you someday. i know God has plans for my life, i do pray with all of my heart that He includes you in it. as young as i am, i know i shouldn’t be thinking of who i shall be marrying in the future, for the future is in God’s hands and He is in control of that, nevertheless…i’m looking forward to that day when i discover that you are the “one”. how hopeful i am in that aspect of my life.

how bizarre is that? a friend told me you admitted to her that you do like-like me. you said it’s complicated. well, i say it is full of twists and turns, but isn’t that what makes it all worth it? it’s going to be so exciting. i’m really looking forward to God’s love story for me. we’ll never know, He could be implementing it right now…