to someone who’ll never know…
February 24, 2006Dear Boy,
Why do you need to look at me back? Just…please…don’t. Ignore me. I hate to assume. Do you know how much I want to forget you so bad? When you look back at my stolen glances, the flames start to grow again. All you do is make me pretend that you notice me but I know for a fact that you don’t.
I keep on assuming. I keep on hoping, dreaming, and going up again. Then I fall down, hurting myself again. The process keeps going on and on. I’m so tired of this hulabaloo. You hurt me even if it’s not your fault. You hurt me with you not having the slightest idea.
Why in the world could you not look away, when all you have to do is think that I’m nobody. Let me serve God without pocketing some stupid personal motive. Maybe it’s my part. I will not let our eyes meet. Don’t let our eyes meet. Napapaasa ako. I know I should be the one avoiding, so starting now, I’m not going to look. I hate this staring game. All I want you to be is my oh-so-pretty ideal guy, far, far away, not noticing that discrete admirer in the shadows. DON’T RUIN IT! Just be happy and let God be the center of your life. Yaknowat? I’m praying for you. Have you been complacent lately? Because I’m really noticing that you do. But what does me have to do with your life. I don’t even know what’s going on. Ok. Maybe I’ll just pray for you. I’ll pray whoever my God’s Best is…. 
Love,
Girl
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oh, i'm not straing my dear. i just copy pasted this post from a blog. don't worry nic, i don't stare. i just dreamand hope.
i would NEVER ever want to be his reason to sin. ever. nor would i want to break apart. you're right. i wouldn't be able to handle that :'c i wouldn't want God to do it either…
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patty, i think i have to say that you're playing with fire here. you really gotta stop starin. you may become his reason to sin. when that happens, i don't thinkyou'd have the strength to break apart. don't let God do it for you.
Posted by nico at February 25, 2006, 9:01 pm